So after reflecting upon this last year, Covid has actually been a blessing. After struggling for the first five months trying to hold onto my business, losing clients, wondering what if, wondering if I will survive, wondering if I need to give up, wondering if I can keep going, I vacillated between many emotions from anger to fear and then back to anger again. I started to really question what mattered in my life. After finally coming to peace with allowing the old part of my business to die, it was then that I found peace and comfort knowing that I would be OK. I started making decisions and pivoting my business to 100% online. I’ve learned new ways to work with people over the Internet. I have adapted new methodologies to work with people remotely. I realized I didn’t need to have a physical office to make people better, that I can make people better with all the knowledge and education that I’ve gained over the last 24 years. It was tough saying goodbye to a business model that just won’t survive these times and to move on and pivot into a new world and a new way of healthcare. It has given me freedom, financial freedom, the ability to work wherever I want to in the world. The ability to work with people outside of my town. The ability to share with people the gift of wellness through online courses and through online personal training. I’ve been able to work online doing energy and somatic work. While I am sad that I have lost many clients, have not seen clients in over a year, I am excited and grateful that I have accumulated a whole other demographic of people who want to get well using holistic health. It has made me stronger and more courageous, I’m confident that I can attack anything that comes my way. I am a survivor. Many of my colleagues did not make it through this. Many crumbled. I adapted, pivoted and succeeded even more than what I thought I could do. For this I am grateful everyday to do what I love and will continue to do. This was a time to change, to clean out and purge. Like a reset. I am no longer clinging onto something that just won’t be any more. I have been provided more opportunities for growth this year than in the last 24 years. I am now just following the path that is laid out for me rather than trying to control something that I can’t.
I don’t know that business as normal will ever be normal again. The world is no longer normal, we have all changed, some for the better and many for worse. I have been working and helping those worse off from this. I am fortunate that this wasn’t me.